he calls me home?

how is it that just when your doing fine,or think you are ,life comes up from behind and kicks you in the pants?

im usually an optimist but recently things have become harder to see the up side of,i guess that the same stuff is always there but we dont want to rock the boat when we are feeling good,and cant deal with stuff when we are feeling shit!
god sure has a sense of humour.one great thing about blogging is that you find that your not the only one whos having a had time or fucking things up.

went to my mother-in-laws today with my partner and got anbushed,things have been a little strained between my partner and me the last few weeks,we havent been talking that much and ive been going through a lot of shit.but today when i went up to my partners parents house he brought the whole subject up.
It resulted in a massive argument and me getting very upset,i realise its had for him to talk to me sometimes but this was like betrail!they are bias they only see things from his point of view.I do not have the luxury of parents i can count on like my partner,for the last 10 years i have put up with and helped him manage his bi-polar disorder and stood by his side,but the first time i have a problem its everyone attack!

maybe im just sounding off here but all i want is some peace and a little understanding,and a partner whos by my side not on my back twisting the knife in!

Its been so hot today everyone is weating and snapping at each other ,we are all using too much electric running endlass fans and air conditioning.so when the day was winding down and the kids were finnaly going to bed i took a moment to go out into the garden.....and it was raining.....and yes god is in the rain......next time you have a stressful day try it!