ive been dreaming of my father every night this week and have found myself waking up in tears,feeling bad.Maybe i sould start at the begining,my father devorced my mother when i was 11,he left and for a lot of years i didnt have a real relationship with him.It was hard because my mother was mentally ill and often tryed to commit suicide.but after many years we got backtogether and we are very close now.but growing up he would be the first to admit me was less than available to me emotionally,and years later we have talked about it and tryed to work it out together.I dont blame him for the past,i know he was young and inexperienced and was carrying a lot of baggage of his own about,and he has tried his best to tell me how much he loves me,but for some reason it just dosnt go away and i think thats what all the dreams are about.In every dream i have had this week each scenario my father dosnt react as i want him to and is less than comforting and supporting.I guess that sub-consiously thats how i still see him,unavailable and not very loving.I once told him how i felt and he asked me what it was i needed from him in order for me to be able to heal the wound,the truth was i just dont know if there is anything he can do to heal the wound i feel it has to come from me.The problem is i dont knoe if i can ever get this feeling to go away,he could say i love you a million times and it wouldnt help!,its like when your a child your parent says by their behaviour "your not good enough for me to love" and if its said enough to you then it becomes a habit and years later you find that you,ve been telling that to yourself for years too,just out of habit.but im sick of it now i want to stop this feeling invading my life,and my dreams,but the real question is how.

can it be done???????